stress out

No matter what I draw, it's neither good nor right. 

I get so frustrated every Monday.

I got so stressed out when thinking about doing the same 

thing as last year. 

I don't know if I make the right choice or not. 

I start to doubt myself so much. 

Maybe I should have worked first to earn some money and then try to apply to graduate schools. 

Then if I fail, I would not disappoint others except me. 

Last Saturday I went to the MFA Open House. 

It only made me even more eager to attend that program. 

However, it also let me realize it takes time for me to reach that stage. 

If I am ready, my portfolio would lead me to the place I long to be. 

If I am not, this time I know I have to compromise and stop being so selfish.